Who Am I? -- the 2014 Edition

That's a complicated sort of question. But mostly I'm just me.

I have a lovely partner and 6 cats -- 5 housecats and a barn cat/garden guardian, Dragon. Our elder cats, Aodhan, Gypsy, Seelie, and my beautiful "first Oregon cat" Luna, our wonderful mamacat Emdee, and her gorgeous son Casteylan all passed over between Jan 2013 and Jan 2014; the elders of renal failure and congestive heart failure and Em and Cas of cancer. Dragon arrived as an undersized adolescent while Luna was failing, but she still trained him well. Jack is deaf, but Binx, Isis, Minerva, and Samhain are doing well.

After a lifetime of struggle with multiple learning disabilities, severe sensory issues, social skills, and much, much more, I started researching Autism last year (2014 note: 2011?). It's helped me so much to understand the struggles I've had and ways to mitigate them and how to embrace all of who I am. I don't know if I'll ever be able to be formally diagnosed (I've been housebound several years), but I've embraced the Autisphere! (The Autiverse. Autworld. The Auterlimits! *g*)

Update 2014: I was formally diagnosed with Autism in April 2014, thanks to the wonders of Skype! Vive la Autiverse!

I'm eccentric, unconventional, goofy, and mischievous. I was at the Summer of Love (Well, okay... I was only 6 years old at the time. But I do remember playing with all the other naked kids in the fountains while the adults picnicked and watched the bands... *g*) My hair is dark blue with fuschia bangs (this week -- some weeks it's purple or red or brown with grey). I'm addicted to all things rainbowy.

I'm an artist. I create. I design, make, and sell StarCATS Cat Toys and have several Zazzle shops: StealthGeekery, Rainbow Autism, and Rainbows4Pride. I knit. I design. I dye and hand-paint yarn. Behold my Ravelry page! I felt. I've made Mutant Enemy paperdolls -- Mutty must do the Dance of Joy! I aspire to spinning.

I'm a writer. I've written two collections of non-fiction metaphysical stories from clients and friends who generously allowed me to share their personal stories: Visits From Beyond and Angelic Encounters. Last year I wrote my first young adult fantasy novella, Oak and Mirrors, under the pen name Ceri Evans.

I'm metaphysically inclined. I do intuitive readings at Starfire Studio.

I garden organically and grow lavender, apples, plums, medlars, irises, catnip, lots of herbs, lots of alliums, garlic, strawberries, heirloom cucumbers and pumpkins, and lots more. We moved in 2004 to a cottage on 20 acres 15 miles from town, and I'm happily planning out more gardens and planting trees on my not so urban homestead. This was the best year so far for medlars -- my little tree gave me almost 100! I'm expanding the garden this year and taking out the raspberries and boysenberries; I'm allergic to both now and so is Paul. I want more herbs and more odd veg that I haven't developed allergies to, and possibly a nice raised bed for carrots and beets.

Our land has a lot of old oaks and had a lot of younger Douglas fir that were choking the oaks. This year we finally had many of the firs taken out, after losing a couple oaks a year the past few years. I'm hoping this will help! An unexpected plus is the extra sun we're getting in the garden and around the house this late in the year!

I've been working on my family tree for about eight years now. Last year I finally found out about my gg grandfather's twin sister, Mary. Although no one living that I could find had any memory of her (including in my grandfather's generation), I found a newspaper article about my gg grandfather's birthday in 1937 that said he had a twin sister, Mrs. Mary Curley, who lived in Canada. And I remembered that one of the households near Ed's father's farm was James and Mary Kerley, and on the 1871 census one of Ed's orphaned nephews was living with those Kerleys! Then I found her obituary in the Markdale Standard; she'd gone out to Manitoba after James' death and lived with a niece and nephew until her own death in 1940. No children.

And this year I found the death record for my birthfather's paternal grandfather, who'd been born in Georgia but lived in Jax, FL. He'd gone back to Georgia and died in Dublin in 1938. I wonder what I'll discover next? This year I also was accepted into the 23andme.com's IBD study and received a free dna test. Fascinating stuff and I'm having a lot of fun unravelling snps and looking for cousins!

I bounce. I sing. I scoot. I spin. I howl at the moon. I skip. I *tacklehug!* my friends. I snuggle. I nap in my nest. I twirl. I dance in the rain. I meditate. I play. I've got wild 'n' crazy feet!! I love.

I love a snarky, well-written character, such as Methos, Spike, River, the 12th Doctor, or Sherlock.

I daydream. I watch bees and dragonflies and birds in the garden. I sing along with our treefroggies. I roll on the lawn (well, I did when we had one!). I turn somersaults. I squeal with glee. I do the boom-boom dance! *g*

I read. I giggle. I write. I dance. I learn. I cherish my friends. I write. I thrive.

I'm autistic. I'm silly. I'm eccentric. I'm spiritual. I'm strong. I'm growing. I'm goofy. I'm moody. I'm fabulous. I'm loving.

I'm a multiple brain injury survivor. There's a lot of my life I can't remember, but even though I'm post 14 years from the first and worst one, I keep getting back more memory all the time. I was diagnosed with cfs/me, fibro, and arthritis in 1998 and celiac disease in 2006. The fibro and arthritis are mostly in remission due to diet. I have a lot of other food allergies and sensitivities as well. I have severe chemical sensitivities secondary to a long-term exposure to termiticide. Some days are a bit of a challenge, but I try to remember there's a purpose for every challenge and just go with it.

I have an unique way of looking at the universe. I'm spiritual, but not religious. I'm qenderfluid/gendercreative -- and I have a lot of trouble understanding why gender is such a major issue to most people.

I am: artistic, autistic, bouncy, brown-eyed, caring, compassionate, creative, determined, dreamy, eccentric, eclectic, enthusiastic, forthright, friendly, geeky, genderqueer, giddy, goofy, honest, idiosyncratic, imaginative, impulsive, insatiably curious, intuitive, joyful, kooky, loving, mischievous, moody, neuroqueer, off-beat, open-minded, original, peace-loving, psychic, quirky, random, spiritual, strong, stubborn, tactile, unconventional, various, vehement, weird, whimsical, xenophilic, ywar, zany.

I love to: adventure, be myself, blow bubbles, bounce like Tigger, catnap, collect rainbows, create, dance, daydream, draw, dream, expand horizons, explore, felt, ferment, frolic, garden, grow, hold hands, howl at the moon, hug, imagine possibilities, jingle, jump, knit, laugh out loud, learn everywhere all the time, leave my mark, listen the rain, love, make things, nap, observe, paint, peoplewatch, pet, play, play with bullwhips, pretend, quest, ramble, read, sing, snuggle, surf the web, tincture, transform, unite, visualise, watch butterflies, work with energy, write, (e)xaminate the universe, yawn BIG, zip from one thing to another, zoom!

I love: 80s music, bells and ribbons, belly dancing, blood oranges, blustery days, cats, chocolate, crystals, dragons, dragonflies, dreamtime, edible landscaping, fairy lights, flannel sheets on cold nights, flights of fancy, fog, full moons, fullbody hugs, genealogy, homesteading, honesty, inspiration, joy, kookiness, lemons, long massages, mischiefmaking, my cats, my chosen family and my friends, my comfy bed, my incredible husband, mysteries, mysticism, nudity, organic gardening, parasols, prisms, quiet times, raspberries, SARK, sensuality, serendipity, serenity, soapmaking, sparkly things, strength training, sustainable living, synchonicity, thunderstorms, waterfalls, windchimes, wordplay, zentomology

I read: almost everything! children's books, cookbooks, crafting books, energy working books, erotica, fantasy, fiction, gardening, herbalism, historical fantasy, history, holistic health and healing, metaphysics, mysteries, permaculture, psychology, science fiction, sociology, spirituality. Some of my favorite authors and/or books/series include: Aunt Dimity, Heinlein, Darkover, Charlotte Macleod, SARK, Ianto Evans, Toby Hemenway, Terry Pratchett, Richard Bach, Agatha Christie, Nourishing Traditions, Betsy-Tacy, A String in the Harp, The Four-Story Mistake, and more.

I strive to: appreciate my blessings, be honest with myself and others, become stronger each day, believe in myself, create beauty, develop my abilities, embrace simplicity, feel and show compassion, grok, hold wonder, love unreservedly, see the beauty around me, spread joy, trust my intutition, use my abilities wisely and always for the highest good for all.


This page last updated November 2014.